[Name]: Debra
[Age]: almost 16
[Location]: Port Saint Lucie, Florida
Guess it wasn't enough to
take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not that girl?
The one who gives it all away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do
Dont try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way
Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head, get off of my bed, yeah that's what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not that girl, the one who, throws it all away.
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22.1.04
Hey all who decide to read my blog..
I`m at Michael`s house spendin' the night. Not much going on.We have the Pimp Toe and Mofo radio show!!! [lol michael] Matt`s mad at me I think.. =( He seems like it, I don`t know why. *sigh* Ahhh.....nothing to write about..that`s why I don`t update very often.I have 2 or 3 more pictures Michael scanned I`ll add them when I get home maybe.Mike and I are just hanging out listening to the radio.So um yeah I`ll maybe enter something later.... cya all later.. ttyl..
mood good... I guess..:
song: Superchick - "Me Against The World'
Posted at 1/22/2004 10:52:52 pm by tearfall
16.1.04
Cuadro Perfecto [Picture Perfect]
Hey mofos how`s it going? Good here.Today I scanned the pictures Michael and I took on Jan 10th and 11th.She messed with one of hers, check it out, thebenji.blogdrive.com Anywayz moving along.Not much going on same ol crap.Cleaning the house, school, hanging out and what not.Matt finally asked me out yaaay! =D hehe I can`t wait to see him, he`s coming to Florida in October! woo hoo! Next time Michael and I hang out I`m going to get another disposable camera for more pictures!!
mood: great but sick =(
song: AFI - "Silver and Cold"
wearing: pajamas
eating/drinking: Pringles/Sunny D
listening to: Korn - "Break Some Off"
talking to: Matt
thinking about: Matt, duuh
 <~~ Me on my bed
 <~~ Me again
 <~~ Michael at McDonalds after we had breakfast
 <~~ Me on the McDonalds playground lol
 <~~ my puppy Ozzie
 <~~ a shelf in my room I just felt like taking a picture of hehe
 <~~ Michael jumping on my bed
 <~~ Matt this ones for you!
That`s all for now folks!! more soon, I hope..I`ll add some pictures from Buzz Bake Sale later.
Posted at 1/16/2004 1:17:48 am by tearfall
10.1.04
This is a survey I took from Michael`s blog only put my own answers..check out her blog too! thebenji.blogdrive.com
1. Do you like Prince? no
2. Do you pick your nose? ew no
3. Have you worn the same underwear two days in a row? no.. thats gross
4. Have you ever had show butt? what?
5. Are you MetroSexual? I don`t know! don`t think so
6. What does EMO mean? emotional music, emo is awesome.
7. The last time you beat someone up, did you cry about it? I don`t beat people up
8. Have you ever gone back just to get your underwear? from where?
9. Do you still own a Barbie? I admit it! yes I do lol but I don`t play with them
10. Do you still own Star Wars figures (male or female)? no never had em
11. Hello are you there? no I`m not I don`t like you
12. What is Bukaki and do you like it? I don`t know what the fuck it is
13. When was the last time you took a shit? what a dumb question
14. The last time you had sex? Virgin
15. Have you ever been in a tattoo magazine or a porn magazine? No!
16. Have you ever been to prom? nope only 15
17. What would you do for a Klondike bar? don`t like them
18. Do you still have letters from your first boyfriend/girlfriend? never got any.. we only lasted 5 days, that jerk
19. What did the punks call you in high school? I don`t remember. been homeschooled since 6th
20. What were you in high school and have you changed? depressed and no
21. Do you like cats? yepperz
22. Do you fuck on the first date? nope I don`t fuck
23. Do you skate? skates or skateboards? neither..
24. Do you know who Jason Jesse is? no
25. How often do you masturbate? don`t masterbate
26. Anal sex? no thanks I`ll pass
27. Would you ever use a strap on? ugh.. no people!
28. What kind of makeup do you wear? eyeliner, and mascara
29. How high is too high? don`t even wanna get high
30. If 7-11 is open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and 365 days a year, then why do they have locks on the doors? good question..
31. Do you wait 3 days to call? call who?
32. Are you an internet whore? I loves me internet but I`m not a whore thank you very much
33. Have you ever had sex with more than 1 person in the same day? ew no thanks and hello! virgin
34. Would you watch a monkey spank it? ugh no
35. How hot is it to watch another person masturbate? wow this survey sucks
36. Would you fuck a midgit? no
37. Have you ever broken into a car? no
38. Have you ever changed a tire? no
39. Whats the most you spent on ebay? nothing
40. What do you really think about mesh hats? lol as if I knew what it was
41. Do you read the enquirer? no
42. What does the T.E.M mean to you? don`t know don`t care
43. Have you been molested by the T.E.M. yet? who huh?
44. Is Whitney Houston a crack head? yes
45. Do you eat cheeseburgers? u know it
46. What’s your bowling average? don`t know haven`t bowled in like 3 years
47. How many notches are on your belt? I don`t know?
48. Make-out or Make-up sex? make out
49. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? who knows who cares NOT ME!
50. Who is your rock star crush? Matt Barton =)
51. Redbull or Rockstar? ??
52. Will Peter ever pay Felice her $380? who? wtf..
53. Do you know who shot JR? someone lol
54. Can you smell what the Rock is cooking? huh?
55. Who’s the one that got away? wtf..
56. Do you believe in Fairies and little green men? uh suure?
57. Are you down with O.P.P.? who?
58. Do you have more then one personality? split personality? yes..
59. Are you needy? at times..
60. Do you take Prozac, Paxil, Zanax, or Zovarax? no
61. Do you frequent the dollar store? no
62. Do you know who crazy Larry is? noperz
63. Are you afraid of the dark? no, the dark is cool
64. Do you still wet the bed? yes poor Michael she`s laying in it right now.. lol just kidding!
65. Do you read your horoscope? yep
66. Isn't Pepsi Gross? no
67. Have you ever ate a bug? no
68. Paper or Plastic? doesnt matter
69. Where were you when Saddam was captured? in my living room not caring at all der
70. Who you callin a come back? that bizatch over there..lol
71. Are you crazy? yuh
72. Do you have issues? duh
73. Are you into S&M or B&D? what? wow am I dumb
74. Do you like it when they call ya Big Poppa? no one calls me that
75. Does size really matter or is it the motion in the ocean? uh, this is a sex question isnt it?
76. Are you a dirty Hippie? no
77. Are you a material girl, living in a material world? I`m not material but this world is.
78. Have you or would you go on reality TV? no
79. Do you call in to vote for American Idol? no
80. Do you cry during E.T.? no
81. Are you a picky eater? not really but can be
82. Does alcohol make you an idiot or horny? no I don`t drink or smoke or anything so back off
Posted at 1/10/2004 5:09:40 am by tearfall
9.1.04
Hey everyone! Michael and I went to the mall and then we hit Wal-Mart and now she`s sleeping over.We might go to church on Sunday if it`s ok with her mom to come get us from my house or we might stay over he house tomorrow night for church.We took some pictures gonna take some more later or tomorrow and we`re walking to Walgreens tomorrow to develope them.Welpers gonna watch this movie [Edward Scissorhands]..ttyl peoples.
mood: good
song: korn - right now
Posted at 1/9/2004 10:59:26 pm by tearfall
2.1.04
Wooow long time no entry, huh?
Hey all sorry it`s been a while.Not much has really happened...Christmas and New Years was alright, nothing special.I got a few things I wanted.Hmm well what is there...Michael went to Michigan for Christmas, she had a white xmas lucky her.My brother is here he has been for the past 2 months or so..he`s getting on my nerves as always.Michael and I went to the mall tonight it was about an hour and it only felt like 10 minutes.All I got was new shoeleaces and I got her some glasses that were on sale she didn`t have any money and we got fries and a soda from Chick-Fil-A yummy.Got into it with Nicole AGAIN but this time I left her blocked I don`t wanna deal with her anymore.And yeah then there`s Matt whom is the best.He`s so awesome, I love him...unfortunately he lives in Seattle, Washington =( oh well..Earlier today while I was away Billy left me a message saying something like uhm "no more calling me babe or anything like that" which is so dumb it means nothing.I say it to like all my friends. Lalala I don`t know what else there is, My life sucks really....All my family does is argue it gets so old.I became friends with this girl Katrina off Bolt.com and became friends with some her friends so we chat a lot.It`s cool..Anywayz....ttyl Byeness
mood: happy but sick feelin...waitin for Matt to get on too =(
song: Drain The Blood by The Distillers
wearing: baggy black pants and my island Yellowcard tee from xmas
eating/drinking: Long John Silvers chicken and fish
listening to: Pressing On by Relient K
talking to: James, Michael
thinking about: Matt
Posted at 1/2/2004 9:28:27 pm by tearfall
20.12.03
Hey all good afternoon.Sonja went home this morning she had some stuff to do and Michael and I just hung out in her room listening to music and she burned me a cd with a few songs on it.We had lunch and watch some of Pirates Of The Carribean: Curse Of The Black Pearl while we ate.
That`s pretty much it, later on we might do something with Sonja we don`t know yet...Right now Michael is sleeping, Taking a quick nap we are both soo tired. Alright must go Sonja might call so gotta get off the internet..Talk to you all later.Ciao
mood: tired, happy, goofy
song: Fefe Dobson "Take Me Away"
wearing: black velvet pants and Level 27 t-shirt [wore to bed last night] and a Good Charlotte hoody cuz it be cooold.
eating/drinking: nothing/nothing
listening to: nothing
talking to: no one
thinking about: same as always but still a secret
Posted at 12/20/2003 4:10:57 pm by tearfall
19.12.03
Hey everyone how is it going? It`s going good here. Tonight Benji, Sonja and I went to the mall and now Sonja and I are sleeping over at Benji`s house.When we were at the mall we ran into James *dreamy sigh*.We met him at Buzz Bake Sale he is Jeremiah`s friend and he also took Michael and I home that night.Michael got me a cd for Christmas and I got her a 10$ gift certificate for Hot Topic.She got Ruby Gloom slippers and a Further Seems Forever t-shirt.I got a New Found Glory patch, Juliana Theory patch and a necklace with multiple stars on it.Now we`re just hanging out in Michael`s room listening to cds.Can`t listen to my cd she got me because my parents took it home.Nothing much else is going on and I dont want to be rude so I am going to go and enter something later or when I get home..Talk to you all later buh bye. mood: happy song: Hoobastank "Crawling In The Dark" wearing: Happy Bunny t-shirt and jeans talking to: Michael and Sonja of course. listening to: Hoobastank "Crawling In The Dark" thinking about: stuff..[secret] Peace out all!! Hugz n Kissz!! Posted at 12/19/2003 11:30:47 pm by tearfall
17.12.03
Hello everyone good morning! Nothing much going on *shock shock* lol -- Matt unblocked me and we`ve talked a little bit but he can`t get on too often.Nicole is a little mad about it but I don`t care she needs to get over it.My parents left a few minutes ago for work my dog was crying because he wanted to go with them.My brothers completely took over the computer last night for 3 hours looking up Porn!! Eww.. Jerks.On AOL I`ve been getting IMs from strange men so I`ll give their screen name to my friend Cory and he`ll IM them and be like "stop talking to my bitch" and it`ll make them leave me alone. lol He`s protective of me, I consider him an older brother.My real brothers don`t give a damn about me but Cory does, He takes care of me.I love him to death he`s awesome.Kevin is a lot like him too which is cool.A few people lately have thought me and my friend Derek were an "item". Lmao That`s the silliest thing in the world.I`m nowhere near Derek`s type.Anywayz I might enter something later, If something happens. Peace out to the home town folks.
Early Merry Christmas to everyone!
Mood: Happy Happy Joy Joy - lol
Song: The Darkness "I Believe In A Thing Called Love"
Wearing: Nothing haha kidding -- My Level 27 baby t and capris
Eating/Drinking: Nothing/Milk
Talking to: No one
Thinking about: This is a secret
Listening to: Jet "Are You Gonna Be My Girl"
- The Darkness -
"I Believe In A Thing Called Love"
Can't explain all the feelings that you're making me feel
My heart's in overdrive and you're behind the steering wheel
Touching you, touching me
Touching you, God you're touching me
I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooh!
I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour, every day
You got me in a spin but everything is A.OK!
Touching you, touching me
Touching you, God you're touching me
I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooh! Guitar!
Touching you, touching me
Touching you, God you're touching me
I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooh!
Posted at 12/17/2003 5:16:29 am by tearfall
15.12.03
Hey everyone, Sorry it`s been a few days.Here are some recaps.
[12-10-2:47 am]:
Ok..so, My friend got grounded a while ago for 2 weeks.She has this friend Matt and she didn`t get the chance to explain her grounding to him so one day she snuck on to tell me and him about it but he wasn`t on at the time so she gave me his screen name to do it for her, so I love her she`s like a sister to me she`s my best friend.So I tell him, we get to talking day after day.A few days later I find I love him, I tell him how I feel and he feels the same.Every time he says something really sweet I get a weird feeling in my stomach.He`s always on my mind no matter what I do and I can`t sleep at night cuz I`m always thinking about him.Today we decide to tell my friend Nicole about it and she flips out then signs off.But Matt also already has a gf so I don`t know..My life sucks...
[12-10-8:34 pm]:
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Ok so now Matt`s telling me to change my feelings since he has a girlfriend and doesn`t wanna hurt Nicole.I can`t just change my feelings! If I could I wouldn`t of developed these feelings in the first place.I don`t know if he has or is just pretending he changed how he felt but even so, How can he even pretend to not love me? This hurts!! I couldn`t help but cry.My mom saw me too... She kept annoying me as to find out what was wrong.I told her the truth though.I can`t lie to my mother.I DON`T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! |
[12-13-12:19 pm]:
Now Matt`s telling me he`s already stopped loving me just because he doesn`t want to lose Nicole.I don`t know I can`t just change my feelings because someone else gets pissed about it.Other than that it`s the same ol same ol shit.Tired..went to bed at 9 AM THIS MORNING!! ahhhh! and I`m sore and sick.Grr.Just sitting here looking for people to tag and reading my bolt scope.Wuvving on my puppy dog! hehe
[12-13-9:43 pm]:
Omgosh.I was talking to my friend Billy online and we were messing around and he said he`d come to my house and yell something outside, I didn`t think he`d actaully do it and later after he was off for a little bit he would not tell me why he had to get off.He shows up at my house! Nick called me on his cell from the street that`s how I knew so I looked out there they were and then Nick was talking to me on the phone a bit and Billy was lying saying none of it was his idea (which it was) and then they scream loud and clear, Debra Likes Cock! I swear I heard them from inside my house, my mom & bro heard them and my neighbors heard them.I was like OMG! I didn`t think they would actually do it.Derek had also left me a message on AIM, which was cool we started talking.We hardly talk anymore.Matt was on, He said he wasn`t gonna be on for 3 weeks but he was on today but hey it`s cool.A little later though Nicole tells him to block me and guess what he does? Blocks me!!! *cries* He didn`t really want to but he did because I guess he cares more about Nicole.I don`t care..jerkoff.I got me some sweet tarts from Walgreens, YUUUMMM! I love them! he he. Nothing else, I`m just listening to music, being hyper, and having fun.Hoping Billy or Nick or both would get on I wanna talk to them.Oh well...Byeness!!
[Today][12-15-4:56 am]:
Yes! We have AOL again! I love getting e-mails so e-mail me LssThnPerfect@aol.com THANK YOU! and if you want you can also e-mail me here on bolt! confusedemotion@bolt.com Nothing else..just bored...later gators.
--I am so annoyed.I kept trying to delete something because I kept messing up and Blogdrive would totally go back a page instead of delete.I fucking hate that!--
mood: hyper-sad-happy
song: I Want To Save You by Something Corporate
wearing: Toyota t-shirt and shorts
eating/drinking: Nothing/Milk
listening to: Nowhere Kid by Smile Empty Soul
talking to: No one
thinking about: Matt-Billy-Nick
Posted at 12/15/2003 7:08:24 am by tearfall
7.12.03
Well we are home from bake sale now.It was awesome.. We were front row for Switchfoot and Something Coporate so that was cool.The lead singer for Switchfoot got off stage and tood on the gate thing keeping people away from the stage and he was like bending over our heads while singing, I got to shake his hand!! Michael got a picture of him while he was doing that.We are a bit sore though from all the moshing, I don`t know why people have to do that I hate it.After a few songs were sung by Something Corporate I had the guard pull me out I couldn`t take it.My legs hurt...I was knocked to the ground a few times and several people were dropped on me from crowd surfing.Michael lost a few of her band pins..That sucks.We got autographs, Michael got Jet for Sonja and Something Corporate, Yellowcard, and Smile Empty Soul for herself.She might have gotten more but I forgot I am so tired.I got Something Corporate and Smile Empty Soul`s autograph.I didn`t get as many as Mike cuz you had to buy the cd to get an autograph and I couldn`t afford that many.I got a Yellowcard t-shirt and a Good Charlotte hoodie, it was so cold.I think I`m sick or getting sick.I can sort of tell, oh well...it was worth it to meet Andrew ah *dreamy sigh*...and the rest of Something Corporate and Smile Empty Soul..Mark Summer`s All Star Cover band wasn`t too bad I think they did pretty good.They did a good job on Good Charlotte`s The Anthem.I also got autograpsh from Buzz DJs Dahmer, Genny Layne and Mark Summers.Michael got an oreo from Mark Summers, he threw it to her and she cought it.I got one but I couldn`t catch it.Oh well.. Hoobastank was good.We didn`t stay for anyone after Hoobastank we were all cold and tired and sore.Derek did not go, He had a little problem or something.Nick didn`t go he was at the church christmas party.Weelp, I think that is all.. Tty all later tomorrow or something...Lata gators...
mood: happy and tired
song: smile empty soul 'nowhere kids'
wearing: jeans, Something Corporate t-shirt and Yellowcard`s t-shirt over that and my Good Charlotte hoodie as well.
eating/drinking: nothing/nothing
listening to: nothing anymore...we were listening to Smile Empty Soul`s album that we both got.I forgot to mention we also got free posters signed by Smile Empty Soul so that was cool.I hope my mom let`s mr hang it in my room...
talking to: noo oone..
thinking about: how awesome the bake sale was, if i can get up for church tomorrow and the same secret as the other times that I`m still not telling..muahahaha
Posted at 12/7/2003 12:01:46 am by tearfall
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