[12-10-2:47 am]:
Ok..so, My friend got grounded a while ago for 2 weeks.She has this friend Matt and she didn`t get the chance to explain her grounding to him so one day she snuck on to tell me and him about it but he wasn`t on at the time so she gave me his screen name to do it for her, so I love her she`s like a sister to me she`s my best friend.So I tell him, we get to talking day after day.A few days later I find I love him, I tell him how I feel and he feels the same.Every time he says something really sweet I get a weird feeling in my stomach.He`s always on my mind no matter what I do and I can`t sleep at night cuz I`m always thinking about him.Today we decide to tell my friend Nicole about it and she flips out then signs off.But Matt also already has a gf so I don`t know..My life sucks...
[12-10-8:34 pm]:
| Ok so now Matt`s telling me to change my feelings since he has a girlfriend and doesn`t wanna hurt Nicole.I can`t just change my feelings! If I could I wouldn`t of developed these feelings in the first place.I don`t know if he has or is just pretending he changed how he felt but even so, How can he even pretend to not love me? This hurts!! I couldn`t help but cry.My mom saw me too... She kept annoying me as to find out what was wrong.I told her the truth though.I can`t lie to my mother.I DON`T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! | |||
[12-13-12:19 pm]:
Now Matt`s telling me he`s already stopped loving me just because he doesn`t want to lose Nicole.I don`t know I can`t just change my feelings because someone else gets pissed about it.Other than that it`s the same ol same ol shit.Tired..went to bed at 9 AM THIS MORNING!! ahhhh! and I`m sore and sick.Grr.Just sitting here looking for people to tag and reading my bolt scope.Wuvving on my puppy dog! hehe
[12-13-9:43 pm]:
Omgosh.I was talking to my friend Billy online and we were messing around and he said he`d come to my house and yell something outside, I didn`t think he`d actaully do it and later after he was off for a little bit he would not tell me why he had to get off.He shows up at my house! Nick called me on his cell from the street that`s how I knew so I looked out there they were and then Nick was talking to me on the phone a bit and Billy was lying saying none of it was his idea (which it was) and then they scream loud and clear, Debra Likes Cock! I swear I heard them from inside my house, my mom & bro heard them and my neighbors heard them.I was like OMG! I didn`t think they would actually do it.Derek had also left me a message on AIM, which was cool we started talking.We hardly talk anymore.Matt was on, He said he wasn`t gonna be on for 3 weeks but he was on today but hey it`s cool.A little later though Nicole tells him to block me and guess what he does? Blocks me!!! *cries* He didn`t really want to but he did because I guess he cares more about Nicole.I don`t care..jerkoff.I got me some sweet tarts from Walgreens, YUUUMMM! I love them! he he. Nothing else, I`m just listening to music, being hyper, and having fun.Hoping Billy or Nick or both would get on I wanna talk to them.Oh well...Byeness!!
[Today][12-15-4:56 am]:
Yes! We have AOL again! I love getting e-mails so e-mail me LssThnPerfect@aol.com THANK YOU! and if you want you can also e-mail me here on bolt! confusedemotion@bolt.com Nothing else..just bored...later gators.
--I am so annoyed.I kept trying to delete something because I kept messing up and Blogdrive would totally go back a page instead of delete.I fucking hate that!--
--I am so annoyed.I kept trying to delete something because I kept messing up and Blogdrive would totally go back a page instead of delete.I fucking hate that!--
mood: hyper-sad-happy
song: I Want To Save You by Something Corporate
wearing: Toyota t-shirt and shorts
eating/drinking: Nothing/Milk
listening to: Nowhere Kid by Smile Empty Soul
talking to: No one
thinking about: Matt-Billy-Nick